IM BACK.
basically things have gone hectic with exams and the such like and i haven't really had time or the inclination to blog but i think IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE (also i'm sick of revising).
basically, things with me and graham are going good, really good actually, obviously it's been months now so i don't think i will fill you in on every little detail but i will give you a quick run down on stuff. it's been around half a year, we didn't spend christmas together, or valentines day but he did make up for it by making the cutest meal with little presents for me, must have been maybe 3 months ago now? we went on holiday with my fam in easter which was so nice and in general although sometimes we are a bit shaking i feel very very lucky. the bad bit is that in a few months he goes to uni and although we've kinda talked about it i still don't really know what's going to happen with all of that but i tend not to think about it too much.
annnnnywwwaaaay
here is how everything is going to go down from now on, basically as its been a long time i thought i wouldnt bore you with catching up with everything so im going to start blogging now and every so often you might get a nugget from the past if it's relevant/i have nothing to post so i just gush...
also what is below is something i wrote in january but for some reason i didn't post, no idea why.
well haii guys! how's it going?
sorry i haven't posted for awhile i've been megaaa busy but also i've had lovely embarrassing moments i thought i'd share with the likes of you.
basically, i've been keeping a low profile because graham, saw my blog a couple of weeks ago. i know. it was slightly mortifying but i got through it but actually hopefully it has helped the whole relationship thingamabob has he's now seen how my terrible brain works. ANYWAY, LETS NOT DWELL!
basically, im here to keep going with the story of how we got together slash i need to rant and moan about my life. SO WHERE TO START.
mine and graham's first date.
okay, so we arranged the sunday date on the saturday, and that was good because it means i had less time to stress over it.
so i took this date as casual, wore some casual clothes, casually got ready, EVERYTHING IS CASUAL OK?!?! (did i mention that even with the limited time i can still worry?) mumma drives me to town, feeling absolutely fine which i takes as a good sign, then walking up to the cinema i get a phone call from graham asking where i am.
from this point i'd actually been feeling pretty good about this whole thing, but this phone call changed everything. i mean it was MEGA AWKS. and so it sent my crazy crazy brain into over drive and went as follows:
"OH MEEEH GEEE WHY WAS THAT SO AWKWARD? IS THE WHOLE DATE GOING TO BE THAT AWKWARD?! SHOULD I JUST TURN AROUND AND GO HOME?!"
but i settled it. i swallowed. i shut up and i kept walking.
BE A NORMAL PERSON.
so i meet with him and i literally jump into my defensive mode and talk, and talk and talk, i know i've said in the past i dont believe in awkward situations but at the same time, i know they exist and i REALLY didnt want it to happen, not today.
so we approach neutral ground, talking about the party on friday, filling each other in on bits we vaguely remembered, the aftermath etc etc and it seemed to be going well! this is good!
now, i know you guys are ACHING to know what lovely, romantic film we'd chosen to see, and so, i think i'll tell you!
we went to see TinTin.
yes that's right. Tin Tin.
but actually it was a laugh, at one point he did the move and i had another one of those moments were i could have clapped it was so smooth. basically, graham is very tall, and i am very short, meaning when arms are resting on the same armrest there is alot more arm on his department, proper lank is my graham. i remember thinking i really really wanted something to happen so i thought fuck it and just show him you're interested, so i go to hold his hand... BUT NO I ENCOUNTER THE LANK AND HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO. so as im groping in the dark for his hand like some sort of blind person with a hand fetish my little finger brushes against his hand, SUCCESS. and here comes the move, he lent across to me to talk, putting his hand on my leg in the process and as he leant back swept up my hand MY LORD IT WAS SKILLED.
so 'im happy.
he's happy.
it all looks good, at some point he properly puts his arm around me we have a little kiss at the end of the film and it's all so nice.
BUT THEN IT GETS BETTER.
this was all in december QUITE AWHILE AGO NOW, and as we walked out of the cinema with his arm around me the christmas fayre is still on and it's got all the pretty lights and it's heart meltingly lovely.
happy happy happy.
BE A NORMAL PERSON.
so i meet with him and i literally jump into my defensive mode and talk, and talk and talk, i know i've said in the past i dont believe in awkward situations but at the same time, i know they exist and i REALLY didnt want it to happen, not today.
so we approach neutral ground, talking about the party on friday, filling each other in on bits we vaguely remembered, the aftermath etc etc and it seemed to be going well! this is good!
now, i know you guys are ACHING to know what lovely, romantic film we'd chosen to see, and so, i think i'll tell you!
we went to see TinTin.
yes that's right. Tin Tin.
but actually it was a laugh, at one point he did the move and i had another one of those moments were i could have clapped it was so smooth. basically, graham is very tall, and i am very short, meaning when arms are resting on the same armrest there is alot more arm on his department, proper lank is my graham. i remember thinking i really really wanted something to happen so i thought fuck it and just show him you're interested, so i go to hold his hand... BUT NO I ENCOUNTER THE LANK AND HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO. so as im groping in the dark for his hand like some sort of blind person with a hand fetish my little finger brushes against his hand, SUCCESS. and here comes the move, he lent across to me to talk, putting his hand on my leg in the process and as he leant back swept up my hand MY LORD IT WAS SKILLED.
so 'im happy.
he's happy.
it all looks good, at some point he properly puts his arm around me we have a little kiss at the end of the film and it's all so nice.
BUT THEN IT GETS BETTER.
this was all in december QUITE AWHILE AGO NOW, and as we walked out of the cinema with his arm around me the christmas fayre is still on and it's got all the pretty lights and it's heart meltingly lovely.
happy happy happy.
so there you go, the last bit of backstory and the rest you will just have to wait with baited breath to find out what's occurring! it's all very exciting.
obvious sarcasm there.
tragic.
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