late sozza. Chocolate Egg Scoffing and Full Frontal Hugging.

Ok i'm sorry for being late! i've realised i've not posted in a while and for that i am truly, truly sorry BUT i now have a snazzy new app on my phone which means i can blog ON THE GO. i know, i've entered the 21st century. can i just say now that at the rate i'm eating easter eggs i  will be obese and loveless by the time i'm 20. and the worse thing is i got home from school and ate:

• half an easter egg
• 5 mini cream eggs
• a square of some weird french chocolate

and the worse thing is... i wasn't even full. not. in. the. slightest.
right i can't remember where i was in life.
so i think i'll just start from the second part of the Luke sitch. (okay i've now read where i got up to and go from there) i told you, this story is LONG.
Okay, so Luke quit drama just after the "i just want to be friends episode" i don't know if i told you but i thought i'd re-say it just in case i hadn't as this point is key, SO REMEMBER IT. you'll be tested at the end, no you won't but i liked saying it, in my head i put on a teacher's voice.
yes he quit drama the idiot that he is, i think he was thinking of leaving but i was the final straw in the lameness of his life with drama in it. so what did he do? kill two birds with one stone! quit drama so his friends stop calling him a pussy (i dont know but this probably happened) and quit me. for awhile....
so yeah the stuff i told you before happened and now we're up to the UNTIL bit, well just before it but i'll tell you now sir i promise i'll get there in a minute, promise! :)
so Luke dropped out the drama and therefore dropped out the play, no more love scenes with our characters then, and by the way to futher the annoyance felt for our dear old Luke i will say he dropped out, without telling anyone. he's a coward, and over the time i have known him i have come to that conclusion.
but the SHOW MUST GO ON. gosh i'm lame...
so who do they ask to take over Luke's role?
who already knows the part?
who is in the morning drama group?
the one.
the only.
Henry. ( told you he came back! and can i point out we have not spoken in over 4 years)
so Henry has grown up, as have i, and he is now a professional, unknown boy but with the humour and voice that i remember (when i say voice i mean singing not that he's voice hadn't broken, now that would have been weird) it was kind of nice having a old friend around. to be honest, Henry and i hadn't left things on the best of terms and, i dont know, it showed there wasn't any hard feelings when i left for another school.
SO NOW IS THE UNTIL!
so one day Henry and i are practising one of the love scenes and just on my line "i don't care what anyone else thinks, i want to go into law and it's because i think i'm a pretty good judge of character" you know proper going for it, flirting, leaning in for the kiss, giving it my all as i realise that it has gone eerily quiet.
i turn round and who is standing the the doorway?
Luke.
fml.
i think at that point i'm in a state of shock staring at him in my head screaming HOW MUCH DID HE SEE?! THIS IS SO AWKWARD.
so Luke then shuffles in saying "i bought these for all of you" gives Doris the celebrations he has and leaves
surreal.
very surreal.
later i kicked the sweets for good measure ;) i'm so mature.
Henry and i rehearsal a bit more and it's nice and (my friends reading this who know Henry are going to kill me) it was a bit flirty, and i have to say i enjoyed it, after the Luke fiasco it was kind of nice having a boy flirt with me, want to impress me, does that make me sound like a slag? i reread and i will answer my own question: yes. yes it does.
anyway it's HOW I FELT!
it gets to the show and i'm feeling okay, i mean i can't sing my solo (you need lungs of a god which i sadly don't possess) but everything is okay i mean i'm not even nervous. until. who turns up to watch?
Luke. I MEAN IF HE COULD BE ARSED TO WATCH WHY COULDNT HE ACTUALLY BE IN IT? the tit.
and while we watch the smaller children's performance i sit between Henry and Luke. awkward. awkward. awkward.
Henry and i make private jokes from other rehearsals which Luke tries and joins in, no Luke, just no.
i KNOW luke is trying to make the effort but i think you will agree with me that it was a little too late. and i thought i'd just piss him off. just a little.
so when Henry and I stand in our places ready to go on, okay now i am a LITTLE nervous, i'm about to clip in my radio mic and OOPS, i drop it. and it breaks.
like i say i'm a little nervous! i know. i'm a fail.
i want the world to swallow me up and the lights go up so they can fix it. i am. ashamed.
Henry is laughing at me and teasing me but actually being rather nice about it all, i have my face in my hands and all i can do is laugh, the situation is just TOO unbearable. and then IN FULL VIEW OF LUKE Henry hugs me and laughs at me telling me it's okay. we do the show, hand holding and all and it goes very well.
end of this little scenario.




i love that these things are really not that big and i'm still telling you all about it.
tragic.