okay things are looking very up with Will at the moment, i just hope he isn't another Luke and is messing me around and sending me the wrong messages, but i don't think he is, he doesn't seem the type... ANYWAY.
well there has been progression: firstly and most importantly, im going to prom with will!! and it was a joint decision so i'm happy happy happy so in order to get to know each other better (like he said) i invited Will around on sunday as i was worried it was going to get to the point where we'd only text and it would get awkward.
SO FAST FORWARD TO SUNDAY MORNING.
i'm bricking it.
the only boy who's ever been around to my house and had any sort of fancying potential was Lewis and he fancied me NOT the other way round! so there is proper panic. (please remember that this is two days after the awful bus stop fiasco) I phone my friend Cathy like PROPER freaking out. we end up going through possible scenarios of the day, how to set up as much talking points as physically possible and im getting calmer UNTIL I LOOK AT THE CLOCK.
WE'VE BEEN ON THE PHONE FOR 2 HOURS. HE COMES IN LIKE HALF AN HOUR. AND MY ROOM STILL LOOKS LIKE A SMALL CHILDS ROOM. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!
so i run round my room, shoving all the embarrassing items under my bed and pray that they stay there unseen. i blitz the living room and sit down for some revision with my music in the kitchen, i'm cool, i'm calm, i'm collected, and i'm going to die.
So, i get a phone call from him, so i pick up and try to be casual as he asks me which house mine is. aaaah!
he finds the house, comes in and sit down at the table and chat for a bit, and surprisingly, it's not awkward, not bad and im enjoying myself. HOWEVER I MAKE A FATAL ERROR.
in order to fill any silences i took a sip out of my glass of water you know just so the conversation can flow better. BAD MISTAKE. so after a tour of my house and the chat we sit down to watch doctor who i decide to sit rather close to him you know allowing something to happen if he wants it and we watch and we comment and laugh then WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?!
i need the loo.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. WHY!?
so i decide i have to get up. on my way back i notice him looking me up and down, checking me out? just curious? or perhaps even gay? i'm joking i have no idea if or what it meant. so i sit down exactly where i sat before (i know this because i had his jumper over my knees and i put it right where i was sitting when i left) and this is the puzzling thing, he makes the move, but DOES HE?!
i mean if he did and it was planned he is very, very good at it i didn't even notice.
but i think he must have had is arm stretched over the back of the sofa before i got there so when i sat down it was behind me... so either it was planned OR it just happened to be their and side down to around my shoulders? hmmmmm....
so we watch the rest of doctor who like that and then when it's over the moment passes and we're sitting separate again, sad times.
pause for some more banter and we decide on mario kart wii which was hilarious. and will gets on with my bro which is a plus and it's just so casual and nice!
then we move to my bedroom.
now this is a big step.
i don't usually let anyone into my room, even friends really. it's my own special little place where i can get away from life, but now i am MIGHTY glad that i tidied the array of tampons, dirty clothes and girly magazines off my floor.
so we sit on my bed and chat but NOTHING HAPPENS. flippin heck, what am i supposed to do?! launch myself on him?! but it was a nice day where we got to know each other better and when his dad came we hugged but this is a bad point i have found about Will. he is an awful hugger. they're weak and limp and... urgh.
i'm just hoping this will go somewhere, the possibility is getting me through exams.
tragic.
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